Saturna

and by that i mean this earth, this universe, this life we get to live. i have spent a great deal of my life pondering how and why we are here, and it is truly mindblowing. i mean, just what are the chances? the best answer i have ever come up with is to experience feeling. feel it, all of it. and to be grateful, and just a bit ago i had one of those moments where it was very easy to feel so incredibly blessed - just to even be here.

i was driving jah isaac out to his mamaw's just as the sun was setting and looked up and saw the moon during this one flat stretch of wide open road. i got really confused for a moment, because the moon looked like a crescent, then i remembered the full lunar eclipse tonight.

i keep track of eclipses, but more from an astrological standpoint than a viewing/astronomy standpoint. like, emotional and psychological effects of these things, the changes that come, or are sometimes beat over your head by the universe around eclipses. they come in cycles of two or three, one after the other, but it is rare that you look up and just see one happening, right in front of your face.

it was nice. it allowed me to pause and marvel, step away from myself and imagine the earth passing in between the sun and the moon from a far off perspective. it made me feel small (in a good ego-loss kind of way), and full of wonder. usually i turn that inside, like how far can i explore my insides - its what i constantly do. it was nice to step back for a moment.

here's to the peak of the tension and its eventual dissipation, beautiful sunsets and visual evidence of the magic of this existence!

...now i am going to go hear some good music and dance, pack, and go out of town by myself for the first time since i can remember, learn how to do my awesome new job, meet amazing people, and get even more perspective on this life i am living.

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