Saturna

we saw star wars at the drive-in sunday night. i had a great time - really enjoyed doing something so simple. it was nice to be able to look at the sky while i was in the middle of a movie. the movie was excellent. i always forget how much i love the whole star wars thing until i see one of the films in the movie theater. the light sabre sound and other epic sound elements are what do it.

certain points in the movie hit home... the whole political parallels to the state of things today, and the idea that fear can wreak havok on our lives, destroy our lives. definitely some stuff to ponder, but then i look deeply into everything.

yesterday was less than great. my tax return arrived, over 700 dollars short of what i expected. i was my fault - i owed on a student loan from aeons ago. what sucks about it is that i had applied to consolidate that very loan two weeks ago, so that it would be cleared, and then i planned to use my return to clear all remaining debt from my record. so, i completely defeated myself out of fear and laziness in dealing with my debt. this is not an uncommon pattern in my life - one that i am working to change. so i have been set back, but i guess it would have been too easy to just take care of it all in one day. (though the particular debt that is left is the only debt that is not my fault. i got screwed by an old company i worked for bouncing my last paycheck and then skipping town. grrrr....)

jah isaac is testing me severely. he has reverted to screaming at the top of his lungs when he does not get what he wants, trying to stay awake until dawn. this and the advent of the heat and humidity have me feeling pretty damn cranky.

however, today is new, and has all the possibility of being good.

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