your pondering boils down to this point and it stirs my emotions as freshly as when it was occuring to me in oct. 04. it is a great point from which to start and what a journey it can be, even if you do not drive coast to coast- as this voyage still has me thinking, even though i have learned so much from it. self-expectations are always harder as is self-criticism, but thats ok, because it always challenges us to grow and be better.

when you browse through my meanderings, you will see things i have learned and strategies i have adapted to what i would consider a better chance for survival. there are no set rules that are perfect for everyone. we all have to find our own perfect balance based on what works for us. i also think that balance changes as our needs change, so we invariably just keep growing. ergo, your self expectations will make subtle changes over time, both in the short term and in the long term. some basic things wont and thats core personality.

i know if i can come to terms with myself, then you certainly can. youre one of the strongest ppl i know.

p.s. i think its time for another journey...